A moment to vent, please

Breakfast Dan and Alex had a study group going last night so I skipped blending up another smoothie and instead took a Lactaid before eating cereal and yogurt for breakfast. It worked pretty well, not an ideal solution, though I might be doing it tomorrow.


Lunch was another repeat: brown rice, back beans, yellow squash, zuchini, onion, grape tomatoes, and asparagus.


Dinner I was ready to eat by the time I got home but put it off till closer to 6:00. I had leftover shrimp fried rice but bulked it up with some frozen vegetables.


Still no exercise and I’m still just as frustrated about it. I’m a bit of a perfectionist so its really bugging me to be so far behind in the training plan. I’m sure part of me is worried about gaining weight too, but I have to remind myself that even running twice a week is more than I used to do and I’m eating healthier than I used to, so I won’t gain weight. MizFit agreed that I sound exhausted (couldn’t make it through a paragraph of Eat Pray Love without my eyes closing).

I can’t remember when I last felt well rested. It was sometime before high school, I’m fairly certain. To have blood work done I have to ask for time off on two separate days since I have to be at work at 7 AM (one day to have blood drawn and another for the follow up). I’ve asked for more time off than usual in the past two weeks so I’m going to wait until mid-October to ask about more time for this, but I’m sick of never having any energy. I doubt its a thyroid issues since I’m lacking any sudden weight gain or loss. Someone might make an argument of depression, but I don’t want to antidepressants or sleeping pills.

Today I started reading Brendan Brazier’s Thrive Diet book and he’s got me fairly convinced it’s stress… but there’s no one thing that I could put my finger on that is hugely stressful in my life so I’m not sure how I could go about changing that.

I’m eating healthier, drink plenty of water, and exercise is supposed to help give you more energy.

My run will probably be put off until Saturday morning. Dan has friends coming into town tomorrow and Hubs doesn’t go into work until 10pm, so I’ll be hanging out once I get off work. I need that run to happen.